Life as it is...

I have to tell you I'm not much of a blogger. I have another blog set up on myspace...yes I know the pit of sin, but someone has to be real in that place. My whole purpose of having that site was to keep an eye on 'my girls'. I would hope we can encourage them to be authentic in their walk with the Lord, EVEN in a place where they could potentially be anything they want.

So here we are. It is June. My last post turned into a heartbreaking reality. January 2nd I had Isaac. My silence was frustrating for some of you, but I am so blessed to have all of you as friends and have never for one second taken for granted how precious each and every one of you are to me.

This has been the hardest experience of my life, and in a lot of ways the journey has only just began. I was aware I would not know how hard it would be to let go until I was there having to do it. No words will ever be able to express the pain that lives in my heart. I will miss Isaac every day of my life. Last night I read a verse in Psalm that says "Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy." I expect to be singing for a long time after this!

I am physically working thru a lot of different pains, but all things considered we are doing as well as we can be.

Thank you all so much. You will never know the impact each of you have had on my life and I just can not even begin to express how much I appreciate your prayers and your friendship and your constant concern for us. Just so you all know, Hallie is doing fine. She has only asked once about 'my' baby and we gave her the honest answer that God needed our baby to do something else for him, but we would get to keep the next one, and she was satisfied with that answer. Jason is hanging in there and stands with me in the waves of pain and tears. We will, by the grace of our Father make it thru this. We believe in His blessings over our life and continue to lean on His understanding and not our own.

On Monday January 8th 2007 we laid our baby Isaac Matthew Pipkin to rest. He was buried next to his cousin Alexander Paul Skorick.

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