9.21.2009

3 years and 13 days ago

September 8th, 2006...I was sitting in the car...the weather was much like it is today...rainy, cold, depressed...it was supposed to be a great day...

...and it was. It was the beginning of an awareness. A journey for new wisdom. An overflow of new knowledge. Many waste away on the journey...all survive...however, few give glory where glory is due. Where many would look at the sadness of the situation, the finality of a life...all I could do was think God is good...even when...and even if. Well, that isn't all that I thought. I thought 'how could this be happening to me?' and that answer hasn't come yet, and it doesn't need to. It did happen. It happened and an unborn baby boy woke me up. With every little kick, he increased an awareness that there is so much more to life. With every ultrasound, I was reminded death is not final. I had a baby boy who was going to prove to be amazing in the Kingdom and I get to be his mommy...forever.

The 8th slipped by me...so I just had to put it out there that the day may have slipped by, but I'll never forget it. The 8th of September is forever marked in my mind...just like the 11th of November, the 1st of August, the 21st of October and 5th of October...there are just some days that change your life forever. The question is...will it change you for the better? It did me.

Mommy misses you Isaac.

1 comment:

*Erica* said...

It's September 16th for me. The day I was diagnosed with breast cancer. And yes, it changed me for the better. I am a better wife and mother and such, but I am also a better child of God. I know that He loves me always and in all ways, but I wasn't doing much with it before my diagnosis. Now I have a great sense of responsibility to live for Christ and to live in His image. I feel a burden to tell people about His amazing grace and unending love and the mercy He has shown in my life.
You're right, we don't HAVE to know WHY. All we need to know is that God is God and that He is who He says He is. His ways are perfect and even though we may not see the reasoning, He has bigger plans for us that we can fathom.

Thank you for sharing, Sara. I think of you always and hope you and the family are doing well. Love ya!